Its official I HAVE BECOME OBSESSED, obsessed with the idea, thought and activity of reading. And I realize how nerdy, I could potentially sound. But truth be told that at my inner core lies a true nerd. That's right, behind all the stylish clothes, stiletto heals, glasses, crazy hair and make-up lies a nerd. A nerd that thrives off of learning and reading about new things. And while I am also obsessed with mediums like Ted Talks and YouTube, I just can't shake the thrill I get from cracking open a fresh new book and turning the pages as I forge forward through the book and get closer to the end. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU OPENED UP A BOOK FOR FUN? YOU KNOW A LEISURELY READ? AND WHAT WAS IT?
I think back to the days of being a kid, when my dad would drag me to the public library every other Sunday, so I could pick out books to read in my "spare" time. You know outside of the time I had beyond school work, my dad's extra homework he always seemed to have for me, kumon and house chores - WHERE WAS THE TIME I WAS ALLOTTED FOR BEING A KID, I ALWAYS USED TO ASK? I think that's why I still love to dance my heart out at any given second and play in the snow and sandbox, I'm clearly making up for lost time, lol.
Anyhow, like most things in my life at the time, those trips to the library were structured. I was allowed to pick 1 history book, 1 geography book, 1 science book and 1 "fun book". I used to scroll the sections of the library for hours, and really only because I was staring at the kids who got to read and pick all the "fun books". Regardless, I would always admit defeat in my multiple attempts to pick only fun books and return home from the library with a stack of books that seemed to be much taller than me. WHY, WHY, WHY? WAS I FORCED TO READ ALL THESE BOOKS?!??!?! In those days, i would just stare at the ceiling on those Sunday's when I returned home from the library and think to myself, this is it, this is who I am destined to be "The Fat Smart/Nerdy Kid", C'est Le Vie, at least I will make billions (which I am still waiting for, lol).
But regardless of all the reading that was forced upon me, I still found hours during the day to hide inside the library at school sneaking reads of all the "fun books". No one was going to stop me from learning all about the babysitters club, the choose your own adventure stories, Nancy drew and Goosebumps. NO ONE, NOT EVEN THAT STACK OF GOD FORSAKEN BORING BOOKS!!!
Now as I have gotten older, I have made time on vacations and some spare moments to pick up a "fun book" and read. However I will admit that over the past 10 years most of those "fun reads" have been replaced with a stack of mile high text books, accounting and tax acts, GMAT books and life. My love for reading as much as i have vied for making more time for it just always seemed to get replaced with the next thing on my to do list that was getting me closer to being a successful running shoe era kid.
However, as of late, I have taken an approach to living that boxes work into a 8/9-6/7 zone and life in every hour outside of it. It has taken a lot out of me to not care, to not check email and to just let it be, but the new life I live is simply amazing. AND now with all the spare time I have allotted myself, I have had the chance to read as many books as I want :) And I have to admit that the more I read - regardless of the book - the more I realize that the mere act of reading is teaching me so much about life. It's teaching me to dream with my eyes wide open and to enjoy the journey to the destiny that I know will eventually be. In so many ways along with my meditation practice, it's caused me to slow down, breath and just let things roll of my shoulders. CRAZY RIGHT? AND ALL THIS FROM READING :) Told you that life teaches you things ALL THE TIME. SO WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR? GO GRAB THAT BOOK THAT YOU HAVE BEEN STARING AT FOR DAYS, WEEKS AND MONTHS AND JUST START READING IT :)
And with that I end with my latest book suggestion - The fault in our Stars (a new york times bestseller) and ASK YOU ALL OUT THERE TO MAKE SURE - YOU DEVOTE AT LEAST 15 MINUTES AT THE END OF YOUR DAY TO READING SOMETHING NEW, SOMETHING FUN AND SOMETHING THAT WILL PUT YOUR MIND AT REST AND EASE :) Let yourself dream with your eyes wide open and enjoy the journey - because IT WILL ALL WORK OUT, I KNOW :)
- Happy long weekend and week ahead, tootles :)
PS. Have a book suggestion? I'm looking to add to my list! If so leave a comment with the name and author of the book :)
The new experiences, know how's, interests, thoughts, perspectives and feelings of Arti Kashyap
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Happpppy LOVVVVEEEEE WEEEEEKKK!!!!!!!!!!
Is it February already?!?!?! The holiday season seems to be but a distant memory, the cold weather seems to get worse and then suddenly there it is, that dreaded week, day and time of year dawns upon us. You know the week when chocolates, flowers, candies, jewellery and everything in between sell for a premium, the week that guys seem to dread the most and the week that girls seem to swoon over and count down on their calendars. YESSSSS THAT'S RIGHT FOLKS - ITS LOVE WEEK!!! VALENTINES DAY, WHATEVER YOU WANT TO CALL IT :) and no matter what you say or do, we all must live through it.
Now being the female that I am, of course I live and breath for this holiday much in the same way that I do Christmas. But it's not what you think. I am not the big expensive gift expector, nor do I ever shell out millions of dollars to wish those closest to me a happy Valentines Day. So I don't buy into this whole retail craziness that seems to spread like wild fire around this week. I simply love this holiday, only because in lives as crazy as ours we get to take one day out a year to make sure that we tell those closest to us how much we love, appreciate and respect them. And so while gorgeous jewellery, bouquets of flowers and chocolates that will only allow my butts to enlarge are nice, why not get into the true Valentines spirit and just buy a card, write a letter or a note, send a text message, pick up the phone or show up and surprise someone and just spread the message the old school way :)
As a kid I think back to my most favourite Valentine's memory - my parents surprising my sister and i with a massive heart shaped cookie from Mrs. Field's that had Happy Valentines Day scripted on it - and think, whatever happened to all those simple things. You know, like the cute little Valentine's cards we exchanged in school that were full of all the cutest characters and cartoons of our times, the single stem roses we used to exchange in high school and the chocolates that used to circulate the halls of every school no matter what age or grade you were. Those were the best Valentines Days EVER! Wouldn't you agree?
That's why I have set out on my own Valentines Day mission :) Curious? Well in one of my first posts on my blog, I wrote about this amazing Non-For-Profit called MoreLoveLetters that had started out in NyC. Their mission - to spread love through letter writing - has inspired me to take it back to the old school and spread some Valentines Day Love in my most favourite way possible- VALENTINES DAY CARDS!!!! So I took a trip to a local shoppers drug mart and my most favourite paper store and stocked up on supplies to begin my VALENTINES DAY CARD GIVING MISSION! So how does this mission work you ask. Well I have hand written on about 20 of the cutest Valentine's Day Cards (picture below) and addressed them to "lucky random strangers who get to find them." My job this week is to leave these cards in random places in the city. You know like on the streetcar, at the gym, in my office building, in the underground, in my favourite coffee shop, and the list goes on. I have left my blog handle on all the cards, hoping that the lucky finders of these cards will leave a comment or two. But really I have no expectations of ever hearing back from these random strangers, I just want to want to spread some love and make sure that everyone gets to smile this Love Week :)
It's plain old crazy if you ask me, this mission of mine. But at the same time rather exciting and fun. I only wish I could stalk the millions of places I leave these cards to watch people's reactions when they open them :) All I can hope for is a smile, a giggle and good old fashion heart warm that will make their day, week and Valentines Day.
And with that i leave you all. May you all take some time out this week, to really think of those you love, have loved and will love and let them all know how much they mean to you. Over the past bit I have really come to know about how short lived some of our times are together, and you just don't want to let the moments pass you by, thinking you will be able to tell them someday. This week - don't wait :) Make it your Valentines Day and Love Week Mission to open up your hearts and embrace your inner Valentines day child :)
Happy Love Week :)
Monday, February 4, 2013
The FORK in the ROAD with the path that sounds absolutely CRAZY, but that you know WILL BE INSANELY AMAZING :)
So there the day was. Friday February 1st, I woke up feeling like I knew the day had a weird symbolism to it and as much as I wanted to hide from what it was, I knew i had to look myself in the mirror in the morning and say "Happy 3 year anniversary lady, you have survived". Survived the crazyiness of the concrete walls that you retort to everyday, the monotone answers and facial less expressions that people seem to exude when they respond and the political battles of trying to reach for the top of that corporate ladder. Man do I feel exhausted just thinking about it all. I felt like I could have laid on my clean condo floors at 7am and just slept for about 3 years so that I could recover from the battle wounds ensued since my career at this place began.
When I signed on that dotted line for this gig, I had no idea what doors it would open. And while the wounds seem like they will be permanent, I am beyond grateful for everything I have learnt, done and met. Being part of the running shoe era, meant that I was suppose to be part of the rat race I currently work in, because only then could I truly realize, THAT I AM DONE, DONE LIKE DINNER. And no, I did not walk into work on Friday and quit my job. I just walked to work that morning with a bounce in my step knowing that the stress, the anxiety, the pressure that I put on myself to fit in this neat little box was all gone. And it's not that I don't care anymore, it's just that I finally have the confidence, heart and strength to admit, THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT TO BE, WANT TO DO AND WANT TO LIVE. Is what you do, what you truly want to do? And does it make you happy?
The structure of the concrete jungle is intoxicating. It pays the bills, it buys me stuff, it lets me spoil the ones I love and see the world. And for that I am grateful, but is all this structure and stability really worth it? I know it makes my family happy knowing that I am structured and stable, but that isn't me and that isn't our running shoe generation. We are the kids that dream big dreams, the kids that want to make the money by changing the world or coming up with the next biggest and brightest idea.
For so long, I have tried to figure out what steps make sense and I kept fitting myself into this consulting, MBA, typical business like bubble, and for what? To be a fashionably dressed female cookie cut out that walks amongst a million others to that concrete jungle everyday. WHO AM I KIDDING? That isn't me. The me i know, has big dreams, she is a jack of all traits, she likes to do it all. So what if i want to be a successful business woman, who owns a yoga studio where she teaches, writes in a blog about everything she wishes, saves the world, does make-up for weddings and events on the side, teaches determined and strong chartered accounting candidates and plans events such as birthdays, showers and themed parties and still gets to have an amazingly love filled social and family life, that includes being a best friend, a wife and a mother. Why can't I do it all? And if not all at once, at least in my lifetime? Why should I have to settle into a box? Is it to make me more marketable as a life partner, to make my family happy or to just be seen as successful in this world? I don't know. I don't know the answer and I don't think I ever will.
And that's okay, because there is one thing I do know. And that is that In your lifetime you will have at least 3 careers, and I am pretty sure the first phase of my first career is coming to an end. And what the second will bring, scares the absolute crap out of me. But that feeling that I get when I think about where it could head because of this next big thing makes me want to immediately spring out of my bed and run to school like I did when I was in first grade :)
And with that I leave you all with THE MOST AMAZING 3 MINUTE TED TALK YOU WILL EVER SEE!! He's just a kid, kid president that is (who happens to dance just like me, lol), but he has the best way of making you re-evaluate your life and listen to what he has to say. http://www.ted.com/talks/kid_president_i_think_we_all_need_a_pep_talk.html
Here is to following your dreams and surrounding yourself with the ones that support you no matter how crazy, ridiculous and insane you may sound at times.
Happy week ahead :)
When I signed on that dotted line for this gig, I had no idea what doors it would open. And while the wounds seem like they will be permanent, I am beyond grateful for everything I have learnt, done and met. Being part of the running shoe era, meant that I was suppose to be part of the rat race I currently work in, because only then could I truly realize, THAT I AM DONE, DONE LIKE DINNER. And no, I did not walk into work on Friday and quit my job. I just walked to work that morning with a bounce in my step knowing that the stress, the anxiety, the pressure that I put on myself to fit in this neat little box was all gone. And it's not that I don't care anymore, it's just that I finally have the confidence, heart and strength to admit, THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT TO BE, WANT TO DO AND WANT TO LIVE. Is what you do, what you truly want to do? And does it make you happy?
The structure of the concrete jungle is intoxicating. It pays the bills, it buys me stuff, it lets me spoil the ones I love and see the world. And for that I am grateful, but is all this structure and stability really worth it? I know it makes my family happy knowing that I am structured and stable, but that isn't me and that isn't our running shoe generation. We are the kids that dream big dreams, the kids that want to make the money by changing the world or coming up with the next biggest and brightest idea.
For so long, I have tried to figure out what steps make sense and I kept fitting myself into this consulting, MBA, typical business like bubble, and for what? To be a fashionably dressed female cookie cut out that walks amongst a million others to that concrete jungle everyday. WHO AM I KIDDING? That isn't me. The me i know, has big dreams, she is a jack of all traits, she likes to do it all. So what if i want to be a successful business woman, who owns a yoga studio where she teaches, writes in a blog about everything she wishes, saves the world, does make-up for weddings and events on the side, teaches determined and strong chartered accounting candidates and plans events such as birthdays, showers and themed parties and still gets to have an amazingly love filled social and family life, that includes being a best friend, a wife and a mother. Why can't I do it all? And if not all at once, at least in my lifetime? Why should I have to settle into a box? Is it to make me more marketable as a life partner, to make my family happy or to just be seen as successful in this world? I don't know. I don't know the answer and I don't think I ever will.
And that's okay, because there is one thing I do know. And that is that In your lifetime you will have at least 3 careers, and I am pretty sure the first phase of my first career is coming to an end. And what the second will bring, scares the absolute crap out of me. But that feeling that I get when I think about where it could head because of this next big thing makes me want to immediately spring out of my bed and run to school like I did when I was in first grade :)
And with that I leave you all with THE MOST AMAZING 3 MINUTE TED TALK YOU WILL EVER SEE!! He's just a kid, kid president that is (who happens to dance just like me, lol), but he has the best way of making you re-evaluate your life and listen to what he has to say. http://www.ted.com/talks/kid_president_i_think_we_all_need_a_pep_talk.html
Here is to following your dreams and surrounding yourself with the ones that support you no matter how crazy, ridiculous and insane you may sound at times.
Happy week ahead :)
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Whoooo wants to build a SNOW FORT or SNOW MAN?!?!?!?!?!?!!??
SNOWMEN, SNOW ANGELS & SNOW FORTS, seem to have been the big thoughts in my mind all week long. And while I know the snowy and cold weather was influencing my thoughts, I am surprised at the excitement I felt by the winter wonderland like weather, considering that i only ever think weather like this is allowed during the Christmas season. And as we can all tell through the cold, snowy weather that is not supported by Christmas carols, decorations, lights and cheer, the holiday season is long gone. So where this excitement is coming from, I have no clue. But regardless, I have to admit that IT FEELS PRETTY AMAZING TO BE THINKING ABOUT BUYING A PAIR OF SNOW PANTS AND GETTING OUT THERE TO PLAY!!!! In fact, I woke up this morning surrounded by pillows and a few choice stuffed toys that seemed to take the shape of a fort around me and I couldn't help but giggle thinking that I MUST HAVE BEEN PLAYING IN THE SNOW IN MY DREAMS :) It also made me want to build the fort that I am sitting in now, as I write this post. GOD I LOVE BEING SILLY :)
It's crazy I think because while getting lost in thoughts of being child-like and playing in the snow, I think about my life, my age and how for so many years I have seemed to be in this rapid rush to grow up, to get things done, to make sure I have all the boxes checked and signed so that i can get my pass to responsible adulthood. AND FOR WHAT I ASK? For someone to look at me and say congratulations you are now ready to be an adult? You know one of those people that owns a house with a two car garage, that's filled with stuff from pots and pans to bedding and housewares, that sits around and talks sophisticatedly about books, films and worldly events. RIGHT, DOES THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE?
I will admit that a few years back I went to Africa to teach primary school and it was on this trip that I had my first inklings of really wanting the life of a responsible adult - the best friend, the wife, the mother, the everything in between. I spent nights thinking about my life and the age I was and the timing that seemed to make sense. You know the timing that would give my parents piece of mind and allow them to live their lives freely, the timing that would make the most biological sense and the timing that in my mind seemed to be the norm. I came up with a list of things I wanted to do, before it all happened and embarked on the journey to get it all done - signed, sealed and delivered. Only along the way I encountered so many bumps, that it made me really sit back and think whether I really wanted it all and what in fact it was that I was looking for. And that's when I decided to just box myself in by my professional goals, climb the corporate ladder and forget having to face all these life questions.
And then in the midst of living in my comfortable box, life happened. I was slapped by one of the most amazing things ever and it opened my life, my heart and my mind up to that child-like person that I had kept safely hidden inside my boxed in life. And with that I began to live a life that was balanced between love, fun, happiness and anxiety. Anxiety, over letting the walls of my boxed in life be open and realizing that the clock that I had set for myself didn't matter anymore because I was on the right path and that eventually it would all happen. It's a scary thought I tell you, to live beyond your comfort zone. To realize that the things you only dreamed of are happening right before your eyes and yet while you couldn't be happier, you are overwhelmed by the pace that life is taking and the fears of everything that you have held onto since your childhood. You wonder if you are doing the right thing, if you are making the right choices, if you are living the right path. You are constantly surrounded by a state of confusion and fear of whether you are alone in the process you are going through in your mind and if anyone will ever understand, not judge you for it and be willing to listen.
And the truth is, ITS COMPLETELY NORMAL. And as I wake up today, thinking of snowmen, snow angels and snow forts and sit boxed into my own little mattress fort I realize that being an adult isn't about being the things that you think everyone wants you to be. It's about having the courage to define WHO YOU WANT TO BE - Silly, Child-like, Goofy, Ambitious, you name it - AND REALIZING THAT IT ALONG WITH SO MANY OTHER THINGS YOU COULDN'T HAVE EVER IMAGINED WILL BECOME A REALITY and FAST
Life is going to happen and it's going to happen so fast that it will cause you to do, say or make decisions you later want to undo, re-think or forget. And while we will all be overwhelmed by the speed of life, we will blessed with snowy days, that are meant to allow us to put on some snow pants, take a break and have some good old fashion school yard fun :)
Happy Sunday Y'all! Hope you all get to build a fort today!!!
It's crazy I think because while getting lost in thoughts of being child-like and playing in the snow, I think about my life, my age and how for so many years I have seemed to be in this rapid rush to grow up, to get things done, to make sure I have all the boxes checked and signed so that i can get my pass to responsible adulthood. AND FOR WHAT I ASK? For someone to look at me and say congratulations you are now ready to be an adult? You know one of those people that owns a house with a two car garage, that's filled with stuff from pots and pans to bedding and housewares, that sits around and talks sophisticatedly about books, films and worldly events. RIGHT, DOES THAT EVEN MAKE SENSE?
I will admit that a few years back I went to Africa to teach primary school and it was on this trip that I had my first inklings of really wanting the life of a responsible adult - the best friend, the wife, the mother, the everything in between. I spent nights thinking about my life and the age I was and the timing that seemed to make sense. You know the timing that would give my parents piece of mind and allow them to live their lives freely, the timing that would make the most biological sense and the timing that in my mind seemed to be the norm. I came up with a list of things I wanted to do, before it all happened and embarked on the journey to get it all done - signed, sealed and delivered. Only along the way I encountered so many bumps, that it made me really sit back and think whether I really wanted it all and what in fact it was that I was looking for. And that's when I decided to just box myself in by my professional goals, climb the corporate ladder and forget having to face all these life questions.
And then in the midst of living in my comfortable box, life happened. I was slapped by one of the most amazing things ever and it opened my life, my heart and my mind up to that child-like person that I had kept safely hidden inside my boxed in life. And with that I began to live a life that was balanced between love, fun, happiness and anxiety. Anxiety, over letting the walls of my boxed in life be open and realizing that the clock that I had set for myself didn't matter anymore because I was on the right path and that eventually it would all happen. It's a scary thought I tell you, to live beyond your comfort zone. To realize that the things you only dreamed of are happening right before your eyes and yet while you couldn't be happier, you are overwhelmed by the pace that life is taking and the fears of everything that you have held onto since your childhood. You wonder if you are doing the right thing, if you are making the right choices, if you are living the right path. You are constantly surrounded by a state of confusion and fear of whether you are alone in the process you are going through in your mind and if anyone will ever understand, not judge you for it and be willing to listen.
And the truth is, ITS COMPLETELY NORMAL. And as I wake up today, thinking of snowmen, snow angels and snow forts and sit boxed into my own little mattress fort I realize that being an adult isn't about being the things that you think everyone wants you to be. It's about having the courage to define WHO YOU WANT TO BE - Silly, Child-like, Goofy, Ambitious, you name it - AND REALIZING THAT IT ALONG WITH SO MANY OTHER THINGS YOU COULDN'T HAVE EVER IMAGINED WILL BECOME A REALITY and FAST
Life is going to happen and it's going to happen so fast that it will cause you to do, say or make decisions you later want to undo, re-think or forget. And while we will all be overwhelmed by the speed of life, we will blessed with snowy days, that are meant to allow us to put on some snow pants, take a break and have some good old fashion school yard fun :)
Happy Sunday Y'all! Hope you all get to build a fort today!!!
Monday, January 21, 2013
To LIFE'S UNEXPECTED events that leave us feeling as awake as an ICE BATH WOULD...
And suddenly it's Monday all over again. Where those precise 48 hours called the weekend go no one really knows, all I can say is from the moment you scream "WOOOT!!! ITS FRIDAY!!!" it seems only like a blink of an eye before we are all graced with the Sunday blues, realizing that another work week is upon us. None the less, I have started off this week with a spunk in my step either because of the exhilarating run I finally went on after a two month hiatus or because of the inspirational presidential inauguration stuff that I drowned myself in all day. This week I feel WILL BE GREAT :)
Now with that being said, I am not about to take a morbid turn with this post, but I do have a rather somber story to share, one that will likely take you all by surprise, but that will hopefully leave you all feeling inspired to make changes in your life.
And so the story begins. Today as I reminisced with a great friend of mine, I was asked if I had heard the news about an ex-colleague, one that at a moment in time I had hung out with quite a bit but in the chaos of life had lost touch with. So my obvious reply was no, last I heard was that she recently moved to New York City over the holidays to set up shop with the love of her life. I was correct with what I thought, but the latest update that was not.
So upon arriving in New York to set up shop with the love of her life, this young 30 year old beautiful woman full of so much excitement began the process of settling in. In the mix of doing all the regular settling in stuff, she decided it would be good to find a family doctor. Very quickly she found one, made an appointment and began the process of just getting a routine check up. On this check up she complained of recent memory loss and head aches, things she attributed to the stress of moving, however the doctor thought it would be best to check things out. Well, thank God for that. Within 24 hours this young, hopeful 30 year old female was informed that she had stage 4 brain cancer.
Now, I will pause before I continue, mainly because i get choked up thinking about it. But also because I wonder if you all think the way the i do, which is - THIS STUFF NEVER HAPPENS TO PEOPLE I KNOW, THESE ARE THE KINDS OF THINGS YOU READ ABOUT IN THE NEWS OR HEAR ABOUT THROUGH FRIENDS OF FRIENDS. And while, this wonderful and inspirational female is not my bff, she is someone that has graced my life and the lives of many of my closest friends. She is also my age and much like me a vibrant, positive, happy female full of hope for the future and the next stages of life. So HOW I ASK, HOW COULD THIS EVEN BE POSSIBLE? HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO SOMEONE SO AMAZING? AND WHY AT THE AGE OF 30, AM I ALONG WITH MANY OF MY FRIENDS STRICKEN WITH THE WORRY OF LIFE BEING OVER TOO SOON. I mean i know we all recently joked about the world coming to an end thanks to the Mayan calendar, but that concept of embracing life seemed so different than what it felt like today when I was told this story. I mean hearing all this really started to ring truth behind all those phrases like "hold onto the ones and things you love", "live each moment as if it were your last", "never go to bed angry" and so on. It made me think and question the current state of my life and what in it was worth it and what just didn't seem to matter anymore. It also made me sit back and wonder if all the people that mattered to me, really knew how I felt and if something were to happen to them or I tomorrow would we exit knowing how true the feelings, thoughts and emotions were. And I know that I believe inside that there is time to close up loose ends and say the things I need to say to those I love, but the reality is this story rings truth behind the idea of - YOU JUST NEVER KNOW. So yes, it is clear to assume that hearing this story today, made for the type of day that leaves you thinking and analyzing the current life you lead.
Now with all this being shared, I would like to report that this amazingly inspirational female has undergone the necessary surgery to have the cancer removed. And while her future is looking brighter, her fight is far from over. This will be a one day at a time type of battle, but one she will never have to face alone thanks to the amazing support she has around her.
So you see, there is a positive twist to this. One that leaves you feeling almost lucky to be alive, but also full of wonder of what really matters. I know I rant a lot about embracing and living in the moment and I truly stick by my words, I just hope you all use this story as a chance to reflect on the important and little things in life that matter to you. Along with the people that have touched your heart, made you smile and laugh, brought you to higher places and really showed you the meaning of true friendship, love and/or family.
And with that I dedicate this post to one amazingly inspirational female, while sending out all the positive vibes I can.
Thank you to everyone who has held my hand, made me smile and laugh inside and out, given me an amazing hug, helped me understand the things that have mattered and really just helped me embrace life. I LOVE YOUUUUUUU and all the things you all have done for me :)
Happy Work Week ahead :)
Now with that being said, I am not about to take a morbid turn with this post, but I do have a rather somber story to share, one that will likely take you all by surprise, but that will hopefully leave you all feeling inspired to make changes in your life.
And so the story begins. Today as I reminisced with a great friend of mine, I was asked if I had heard the news about an ex-colleague, one that at a moment in time I had hung out with quite a bit but in the chaos of life had lost touch with. So my obvious reply was no, last I heard was that she recently moved to New York City over the holidays to set up shop with the love of her life. I was correct with what I thought, but the latest update that was not.
So upon arriving in New York to set up shop with the love of her life, this young 30 year old beautiful woman full of so much excitement began the process of settling in. In the mix of doing all the regular settling in stuff, she decided it would be good to find a family doctor. Very quickly she found one, made an appointment and began the process of just getting a routine check up. On this check up she complained of recent memory loss and head aches, things she attributed to the stress of moving, however the doctor thought it would be best to check things out. Well, thank God for that. Within 24 hours this young, hopeful 30 year old female was informed that she had stage 4 brain cancer.
Now, I will pause before I continue, mainly because i get choked up thinking about it. But also because I wonder if you all think the way the i do, which is - THIS STUFF NEVER HAPPENS TO PEOPLE I KNOW, THESE ARE THE KINDS OF THINGS YOU READ ABOUT IN THE NEWS OR HEAR ABOUT THROUGH FRIENDS OF FRIENDS. And while, this wonderful and inspirational female is not my bff, she is someone that has graced my life and the lives of many of my closest friends. She is also my age and much like me a vibrant, positive, happy female full of hope for the future and the next stages of life. So HOW I ASK, HOW COULD THIS EVEN BE POSSIBLE? HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO SOMEONE SO AMAZING? AND WHY AT THE AGE OF 30, AM I ALONG WITH MANY OF MY FRIENDS STRICKEN WITH THE WORRY OF LIFE BEING OVER TOO SOON. I mean i know we all recently joked about the world coming to an end thanks to the Mayan calendar, but that concept of embracing life seemed so different than what it felt like today when I was told this story. I mean hearing all this really started to ring truth behind all those phrases like "hold onto the ones and things you love", "live each moment as if it were your last", "never go to bed angry" and so on. It made me think and question the current state of my life and what in it was worth it and what just didn't seem to matter anymore. It also made me sit back and wonder if all the people that mattered to me, really knew how I felt and if something were to happen to them or I tomorrow would we exit knowing how true the feelings, thoughts and emotions were. And I know that I believe inside that there is time to close up loose ends and say the things I need to say to those I love, but the reality is this story rings truth behind the idea of - YOU JUST NEVER KNOW. So yes, it is clear to assume that hearing this story today, made for the type of day that leaves you thinking and analyzing the current life you lead.
Now with all this being shared, I would like to report that this amazingly inspirational female has undergone the necessary surgery to have the cancer removed. And while her future is looking brighter, her fight is far from over. This will be a one day at a time type of battle, but one she will never have to face alone thanks to the amazing support she has around her.
So you see, there is a positive twist to this. One that leaves you feeling almost lucky to be alive, but also full of wonder of what really matters. I know I rant a lot about embracing and living in the moment and I truly stick by my words, I just hope you all use this story as a chance to reflect on the important and little things in life that matter to you. Along with the people that have touched your heart, made you smile and laugh, brought you to higher places and really showed you the meaning of true friendship, love and/or family.
And with that I dedicate this post to one amazingly inspirational female, while sending out all the positive vibes I can.
Thank you to everyone who has held my hand, made me smile and laugh inside and out, given me an amazing hug, helped me understand the things that have mattered and really just helped me embrace life. I LOVE YOUUUUUUU and all the things you all have done for me :)
Happy Work Week ahead :)
Friday, January 18, 2013
WHERE IS THE OFF SWITCH TO MY MIND?!?!?!?! PLEASE AND THANKS :)
Have you every just spent 10 minutes of your day with your mind completely shut off? And I don't mean disconnecting from the world by engrossing yourself in TV, music, a good read or a substance of your choice, I mean really just sitting there and staring blankly into space, with out a thought in your mind? I know the idea seems absolutely crazy and probably completely unattainable, but really have you ever tried? Do you think it's even possible?
Believe you me I know how crazy this seems. I remember being in my first, second, third and even my fiftieth yoga class, laying in Shavasana thinking to myself "Huh, Hi God, I think I am supposed to shut my mind off during meditation as I lay here, but there is one problem….I have no idea where that switch is!!! Sooooo instead, let’s have a conversation about anything and everything until someone in this class has enough balls to get up so I can follow suit :)". Now, with all the yoga I have done over the years, you would think I would have gotten the hang of meditation by now, but the truth is whenever I think I have gotten it, I catch myself almost about to snore and realize that the line between sleeping and shutting my mind off is very blurry.
Therefore, with realizing that my attempts at learning to meditate had failed and understanding that this is something I have really wanted to learn and try, I finally stopped talking about wanting to do it and actually promised myself a couple months ago that I would make a solid effort and learn. And with that I opened up google and entered in "How to meditate" and began this process. Now, really the Internet is a database full of weirdness which is what I got back as I attempted to scroll through all the things Google had found for me. I was overwhelmed, frustrated and confused with which path or link to follow and wondered if i would ever stop reading about meditating and actually be able to do it!!!!! And than i JUST DECIDED - THAT'S IT!! I am going to give myself 10 minutes a day to actually attempt to meditate. That means, timer on, mind off, outside world goodbye! And with that i BEGAN :)
Now there are way too many techniques that i tried in my attempt to find one that worked for me, but i will tell you that 60 days in, I am up to 20 minutes of meditation every morning and it has made a world of difference. Usually, my alarm goes off every morning and immediately i hate the world. I have grown to love sleep so much, that it’s almost like the sound of depression ringing through my veins when my alarm sounds in the AM. And that feeling is still there, but I no longer snooze, instead I wake up, assume my meditation position and begin my 20 minutes. And at the end of it, it is amazing at the state my mind is in and the way my days have carried out since i started. A person, like me who gets anxiety pains from pretty much anything - i.e. a random phone call, someone asking how I am, receiving an email from someone that could have bad news - has learned to just let go. Physically and mentally as much I want to i can't worry about the things i have no control over anymore and at the same time, having that 20 minutes to just clear my mind of everything, has really just put everything in my life and world into perspective in a crazy but amazing way. It’s strange i tell you and at times when I laugh or smile at things that used to drive me absolutely bonkers, I catch myself immediately running to a washroom so I can look myself in the mirror, give my cheek a slap and wait to see if I am really actually alive or if I have become this odd smiley robot person, lol. Its been an oddly refreshing experience I tell you and one thatI THINK ALL OF US NEED TO TRY.
And you don't just have to take my word and advise for it!! Just try a google search " The benefits of meditation" or dedicate 10 minutes of your time to watching this TED talk that I came across last week that talks about the importance of dedicating just 10 minutes of your day to doing absolutely nothing - http://www.ted.com/talks/andy_puddicombe_all_it_takes_is_10_mindful_minutes.html
The beauty of this - is that there is no right or wrong way. You can follow any method that works for you, but the point is that YOU NEED TO TRY IT!! Remember how I talked about us running shoe folks being in a constant state of running, well i have come to learn that this is the first step in slowing down a bit and really gaining the perspectives you need to at least RUN IN ALL THE RIGHT DIRECTIONS.
And so now - WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR!!!!!!!! Just try it, if not for the benefits you could gain at least try it for the comedic relief of what your first few attempts will be like, LOL.
Happy meditating and Weekend Y'all :)
Sunday, January 13, 2013
OPPPPPA GANNNNNGGGNAMMMM STYLLLEEE, HEYYY EVVVERYBOOODYYYYYYY, WOOOOOT WOOOOOOT!!!!
First of all I want to start off by saying, JUST HOW EXCITED I AM to be writing this post, from my very new and amazing lap top :) Succumbing to my point hoarding ways, never felt soo good!!!! I am in complete aww of my brand new baby that is completely equipped with its very own special edition Marc Jacobs casing. That's RIGHT, momma got her baby some designer clothes, before she got some for herself :( sigh, I guess this is the price I pay for being a slave to my writing equipment :)
Anyhow, getting to this post and the topic at hand, I KNOW WHAT YOU ALL ARE THINKING - "This song is about 3-5 months too old, for me to be dedicating a post to it". And while I agree in some regard, I would argue that we would all be in denial if we didn't admit that every time we heard this very song the larger part of us begin immediately bopping our heads and screaming out the chorus. COME ON NOW - DON'T YOU LIE TO ME, YOURSELF AND ALL THOSE OUT IN CYBERSPACE.
My new obsession with this song stems from images i now have of my Punjabi cowboy family screaming out the chorus as they dance in ways I think none of them thought they could. I mean imagine it - aunties, uncles, older cousins and younger nieces and nephews all clothed in the latest Indian fashions, foreheads graced by bindi's and heads and arms covered in multi coloured turbans and bangles, as they all scream and shout some crazy Korean dance song and attempt to imitate the oh so famous dance moves. I'm pretty sure I witnessed muscles being pulled and asthma attacks almost being head and in the chaos of it all I'm positive I got bopped in the forehead and stepped on umpteen times. Cuts, bruises, ripped Indian clothes, LOL, all worth it in the name of PSY. I mean I am pretty sure i have woke up a billion times this past week, giggling of images of the chaos this song ensued in a room of over 1000 Indians all screaming out the lyrics with their multi-version Indian accents.
So with this experience under my belt, I am now 10000% confident with saying that PSY may turn out to be a 1 hit wonder for this song, but he has definitely ensued a phenomenon that is quite amazingly infectious. Now my rant is WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I THINK OF IT?!?? Or my even bigger one is WHY THE HELL DIDN'T SOME CRAZY PUNJABI GUY THINK OF IT AND RELEASE THE DAMN SONG!!!
I mean I know PSY has some moves, but seriously, Bhangra moves are soooooo much easier to pick up, a better cardio work out and definitely more fun!!!!! I can even imagine the music video having references to our famous dance moves such as the light bulb, towel and sweeping the floor. SO COME ON YOU MUSICAL PUNJABI'S GET ON IT!!!!!!! I am tired of these 1 hit wonders in other languages coming out! I actually want to be able to say the words and know what the hell I am saying or least be able to fake it by turning on my Indian accent and blending in, LOL. So many other cultures have jumped on this bandwagon and I think its about time we jumped on, wouldn't you say so????? INDIANS, OUR ACCENTS, AND OUR DANCE MOVES DESERVE A CHANCE AT BEING A MUSICAL PHENOMENON THAT SWEEPS THE NATION :) I am not attempting to be a hater on those that have perfected this 1 hit wonder business, but am definitely promoting that us Indians also deserve a chance at this popularity.
And with that I am gangnam styling my way out this post and wishing you all a week full of a lot of head bopping, chorus screaming and good old fashion bootay shaking.
Til next time :)
Anyhow, getting to this post and the topic at hand, I KNOW WHAT YOU ALL ARE THINKING - "This song is about 3-5 months too old, for me to be dedicating a post to it". And while I agree in some regard, I would argue that we would all be in denial if we didn't admit that every time we heard this very song the larger part of us begin immediately bopping our heads and screaming out the chorus. COME ON NOW - DON'T YOU LIE TO ME, YOURSELF AND ALL THOSE OUT IN CYBERSPACE.
My new obsession with this song stems from images i now have of my Punjabi cowboy family screaming out the chorus as they dance in ways I think none of them thought they could. I mean imagine it - aunties, uncles, older cousins and younger nieces and nephews all clothed in the latest Indian fashions, foreheads graced by bindi's and heads and arms covered in multi coloured turbans and bangles, as they all scream and shout some crazy Korean dance song and attempt to imitate the oh so famous dance moves. I'm pretty sure I witnessed muscles being pulled and asthma attacks almost being head and in the chaos of it all I'm positive I got bopped in the forehead and stepped on umpteen times. Cuts, bruises, ripped Indian clothes, LOL, all worth it in the name of PSY. I mean I am pretty sure i have woke up a billion times this past week, giggling of images of the chaos this song ensued in a room of over 1000 Indians all screaming out the lyrics with their multi-version Indian accents.
So with this experience under my belt, I am now 10000% confident with saying that PSY may turn out to be a 1 hit wonder for this song, but he has definitely ensued a phenomenon that is quite amazingly infectious. Now my rant is WHY THE HELL DIDN'T I THINK OF IT?!?? Or my even bigger one is WHY THE HELL DIDN'T SOME CRAZY PUNJABI GUY THINK OF IT AND RELEASE THE DAMN SONG!!!
I mean I know PSY has some moves, but seriously, Bhangra moves are soooooo much easier to pick up, a better cardio work out and definitely more fun!!!!! I can even imagine the music video having references to our famous dance moves such as the light bulb, towel and sweeping the floor. SO COME ON YOU MUSICAL PUNJABI'S GET ON IT!!!!!!! I am tired of these 1 hit wonders in other languages coming out! I actually want to be able to say the words and know what the hell I am saying or least be able to fake it by turning on my Indian accent and blending in, LOL. So many other cultures have jumped on this bandwagon and I think its about time we jumped on, wouldn't you say so????? INDIANS, OUR ACCENTS, AND OUR DANCE MOVES DESERVE A CHANCE AT BEING A MUSICAL PHENOMENON THAT SWEEPS THE NATION :) I am not attempting to be a hater on those that have perfected this 1 hit wonder business, but am definitely promoting that us Indians also deserve a chance at this popularity.
And with that I am gangnam styling my way out this post and wishing you all a week full of a lot of head bopping, chorus screaming and good old fashion bootay shaking.
Til next time :)
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